Originally posted June 7, 2017
Happy hump day, everyone! I hope you have had a great start to your June!
I have had a rough past couple of weekends, due to my husband’s traveling for work. He’s gone on his last stretch until this afternoon, and then he’s home for the summer, thank goodness! I refuse to let him go anywhere when it’s within weeks of this baby being born.
Anyway, I made this video on my YouTube channel last week called, “To the Failing Mom“. Y’all. I had an emotional breakdown LOL. Long story short, all three kiddos were jumping on the very last nerve that I had, and after an entire cup of green smoothie ended up all over the kitchen floor, all I could do was go to my room and cry.
Hey hey now, don’t smirk at me. We’ve all been there. Sometimes, you can laugh to keep from crying, but then there are times when you just need to cry. Life can be overwhelming. There are many ranges of emotions that women can tend to experience, and it’s completely normal (especially when you’re pregnant!).
I came to realize I had all this bottled up tension inside, and that liquid on my floor was the straw that broke the camel’s back! I couldn’t even control myself! The tears just started flowing.
Now, you can attribute this to pregnancy hormones, but I think it’s worth talking about. You may be experiencing a challenging season in your life, and those will come. People will tell you to rise up to the occasion, buck up, you can do it, etc. But what happens when you’ve done all you can?
There are seasons in life for EVERYTHING. A time to rise, a time to fall. A time to laugh, a time to cry. I saw a quote the other day that said, “people cry not because they’re weak, but because they’ve been strong for too long.”
It hit me right between the eyes! As I mentioned in the video, just because we fail, it doesn’t we are a failure as a person. My weaknesses don’t make me who I am.
There’s a scripture that comes to mind in all this: “But He said to me, ‘My grace is sufficient for you, for my power is made perfect in weakness.’ Therefore I will boast all the more gladly of my weaknesses, so that the power of Christ may rest upon me. For the sake of Christ, then, I am content with weaknesses, insults, hardships, persecutions, and calamities. For when I am weak, then I am strong.” 2 Corinthians 12:9-10 ESV
I love this passage because grace is one of the things we need most. If not for the grace of God, how else can we succeed? When we are too weak to handle things, God steps in and does the work for us. Now, it may not seem like it at the time, but I’ve found that EVERY TIME I look back, I can see God’s hand working in my life.
I have to ask Jesus for His grace every day. I have the responsibility to leave a legacy to four humans. That’s a big deal! I have no idea how to do that. I make mistakes. I say the wrong things. But the fact that Jesus directs my steps gives me great comfort.
So – It’s okay for me to cry for being overwhelmed. In fact, I welcome the feeling of not knowing what to do or how to respond, because then I know I’m not doing things on my own. For when I am weak, He makes me strong. #boastinyourweakness #hidingisoverrated
Until next time!
Shayla